Soundtrack: The Greatest

You know what drives me absolutely bonkers. There will be a song that you love, a song that castigates you, makes the floodgate of tears open, that absolutely fillets your soul……and then you see the video and you want to choke whoever directed it because they obviously didn’t listen to the song and made the shittiest interpretation in the history of the free world.

Case in point:

The Greatest by Cat Powers

Once I wanted to be the greatest
No wind of waterfall could stall me
And then came the rush of the flood
Stars of night turned deep to dust

Melt me down
Into big black armour
Leave no trace of grace
Just in your honour
Lower me down
To culprit south
Make ‘em wash a space in town
For the lead
And the dregs of my bed
I’ve been sleepin’
Lower me down
Pin me in
Secure the grounds
For the later parade

Once I wanted to be the greatest
Two fists of solid rock
With brains that could explain
Any feeling

Lower me down
Pin me in
Secure the grounds
For the lead
And the dregs of my bed
I’ve been sleepin’
For the later parade

Once I wanted to be the greatest
No wind of waterfall could stall me
And then came the rush of the flood
Stars of night turned deep to dust

A bowling alley? The best you could come up with for a song that played at the apotheosis of my life was a fricking bowling alley? Seriously? I’m going to go into an apoplectic fit or have a coronary or something….

State of the Union: Howling at the moon
Listening to: Myself howling at the moon and cursing at the creative director that just shat all over my wedding song.

Posted: 7:08 PM, Fri 12 Jun 2009 in Soundtrack

Edited: August 4th, 2009

Soundtrack: Truth Teller

I don’t understand,
Why do I stress the man,
When there’s so many bigger things at hand,
We coulda never had it all,
We had to hit a wall,
So this is inevitable withdrawal,
Even if I stop wanting you,
A perspective pushes true,
I’ll be some next man’s other woman soon,

I cannot play myself again,
I should just be my own best friend,
Not fuck myself in the head with stupid men.

So are history, your shadow covers me
The sky above ablaze.

I wish I could say no regrets,
And no emotional debts,
‘Cause as we kiss goodbye the sun sets,
So we are history,
Your shadow covers me,
The sky above ablaze that only lovers see,

He walks away,
The sun goes down,
He takes the day but I’m grown,
And in your way
In this blue shade,
My tears dry on their own.

That damned Amy Winehouse. She may or may not be a crack head, but she sings the truth of my life and manages to find the words that I can’t seem to say. I’ve been holding onto someone for a long time and, finally, I think I’m ready to let go and move on.

State of the Union: Free
Listening to: Tears Dry on Their Own by Amy Winehouse.

Edited: August 23rd, 2008

Soundtrack: Heart on a Leash

My disposition as of late has been prickly at best. I don’t think my coworkers know how to deal with me, not that they ever really did, but I think it’s gotten worse. I came back from bereavement in a foul mood after my nana died and after Gianni, well, let’s just say dark miasma of despair is downplaying the situation. Everyone tells me I need to cry. I need to yell. I need to scream. I need to beat someone up. I need to go get knee-whopping drunk. I need to have an orgy. I need to shop until I can’t shop anymore. The advice has been endless. I tolerate it because it’s given in love.

I was listening to Meg’s music page on My Space today. I don’t know what it is about that song. It’s not like it was about dying or significant others or anything. Unless I’m mistaken, it’s about a dog. And it had me in tears. I sat there in my office and cried my eyes out. And it wasn’t just the nice PM she sent me before I listened to it, even though it may have made me more susceptible. Her music touched my grinchy little heart. I cried and cried. And then I went out and started being nice to people that I haven’t had a civil word with in what feels like ages.

Meg, you are their hero right about now. And mine, too.

State of the Union: Surprisingly well
Listening to: Meg’s music

Edited: August 23rd, 2008

Soundtrack: Life Tunes

Slade issued the challenge a few days ago, but I had to let it percolate in my mind for a little while before deciding. I picked my 20 Life Tunes based on 20 life-changing events in my life and the songs that were playing in the background as they happened. And so, in no particular order, with no rhyme or reason:

1) Across the Universe by Fiona Apple
2) Close to Me by The Cure
3) Desvelado by Bobby Pulido
4) Sad Caper by Hootie and the Blowfish
5) Black by Pearl Jam
6) Love Me For Me by Ashlee Simpson
7) Deep Inside by Mary J. Blige
Angels by Robin Thicke
9) I’ll Give All My Love to You by Keith Sweat
10) Be Still by Kelly Clarkson
11) Tears Fall Down by Hootie and the Blowfish
12) Antologia by Shakira
13) I Ain’t Mad at Ya by Tupac Shakur
14) Much Too Young (To Feel This Damn Old) by Garth Brooks
15) God is Trying to Tell You Something from The Color Purple
16) Ex Factor by Lauryn Hill
17) Ditty by Paperboy
18) Desperately by George Strait
19) Kiss Your Love Goodbye by Brian McKnight
20) Back to Black by Amy Winehouse

State of the Union: Pensive
Listening to: La Vie en Rose by Edith Piaf

Edited: August 18th, 2008